Dealing with the Aftermath of Depression

Having been depressed my first 2 years of med school, I ended up with extremely shitty stats.

how shitty? I’m in the 4th quartile for my class (at a top 20 med school, slightly redeeming?), and I got a 210 on my USMLE step 1 (first boards we take after 2nd year med school) which is equivalent to ~22nd percentile. FML.

I’m TRYING really hard to stay positive. I’ve only had 2 rotations- psychiatry and OB-GYN, so there is still a lot left to be determined.. but I am struggling to maintain optimism when I am absolutely certain I want to do emergency medicine- a rather competitive specialty.

But, what’s done is done. What is in my power is to do as well as I possibly can for my remaining rotations: internal medicine, neurology, pediatrics, surgery, and family medicine.

I have to make sure I work my hardest throughout the ENTIRE ROTATION! It is so easy to want to go home STAT when I’ve had a long day in clinic, but I must remember to NOT BE LAZY!!!!!!! EYES ON THE PRIZE.

With that said, I would like to make sure I take adequate time to reflect periodically, that means I will probably try to get back into writing my feelings on here regularly.

but, on to some studying for now…

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